Fatima

Uncertainty

Something tells me my mom is pissed off at me. She’s been acting so incredibly weird since I’ve gotten home, it’s not even funny. God she’s so dumb. Idk.

Something tells me she’s pissed because I’m acting on behalf of my homosexuality and she can’t handle it occurring in her sight.

She just creates so much fury in my heart it’s just not even funny. Well, I hope shit goes down tomorrow because I will fucking let her know what a terrible piece of shit woman she is and if she can’t handle me being gay - I hope the best for her because I won’t consider her my mother any more. She’s just too worthless to me. She’s seriously an agonizing piece of shit that sprays her diarrhea everywhere.

Fuck her.

I hate her.

I long to alienate myself from that bitch. I just hate her, god. Can’t wait to move out and tell her about all the glorious gay butt sex I’m having :)

Good night.

May 23, 2012

This is a rant. Don’t bring this up in real life if you know me because it’s just annoying. I don’t know why. Probably because Tumblr is a unique place where I can just spew my thoughts out without judgement or interruption of any sort.

With out further ado… *sigh*
I feel like my parents give no understanding towards me. It’s like I must become exactly how they want me to be. There’s no such thing as self-expression in this home. I’m so used to it now it by now, it doesn’t even matter. I’m moving out sooner than later so there’s no need to get bent out of shape with how they are but… it’s hard to just be myself. I can’t explain it.

I wonder where I’ll be 10 years from now. It kind of creeps me out to know that from here on out, I’m really just keeping a track record of jobs to sustain my life. From here and out it’s just work. Weird!

Just can’t wait to move out. Whenever that’ll be. I know I made that whole “25 deadline” promise but that’s physically impossible being that even owning a driver’s license by that point is questionable. So, yeah… kind of hard to move out when you can’t drive away in the first place. Lol

Is there a reason for everything in life? I hope so because this is one ugly lesson that I’ve been enduring. It’s just life, shit happens.

I want 2013 now please :’( where’s a time machine when you need one?

I feel like my parents make the most asshole comments ever at times. I don’t want to go into detail but I feel like for everything I do in life, they come up with the most unmotivating comment ever to share with me. I guess this goes along with the whole self-expression rant I had earlier but god!! Ugh. Fucking parents.

Can’t wait for my next life. It’ll be cray cray!!!!!!!! :) until then, I’ll just suffer and hope for the better.

Don’t get a DUI. It seriously ruins your life.